An INDIGo's Heart

My daughter, Ren~Maya, was recovering and healing from a small bout of 'neurological challenge'. Yesterday the school nurse calls (we're very familiar) and says that my sweetie needs to come home, so as she's talking, I'm making moves to go and get her. 

Before I get off the phone, she says, 'Maya~Ren, want's to speak with you'. 'Of course", I say.  "Mom, I need to go home. I'm not mentally or emotionally equipped to deal with all this today."  My daughter's strong 'matter-of-fact' manner, has always been a signature of hers and today, its in Ancient Heiroglyphs; I'm so proud of this awesome lady in bloom.

How awesome that she, this blossoming queen, with a mighty generation of new way showers, knows herself and is strong enough to voice her mind and heart so freely.

Really interesting, it is, this combination of all new 'awakening' to all of our various bodies, with everything else. Even the neurologist, the other day, commented on the new generations and their 'own ways' of wanting to do things, as Ren~Maya, discussed which medications she was, and was not comfortable with. 

Journeys of evolving~

Inspirational light, in motion...so humble, nearly irreverent~as many Indigos ;-), of any formality, with  it all :-).

Gotta love those 'Go's'~   Love to ALL the Indigo and Star children of our Future~  Light the way~STARS of BE~ing~  

*Sparkle and Joy, as the Lights, you are*

Loving Light and sooooo Blessed  :-)      

~THANK YOU , to the ALL~

AyAnnA K

Embracing~Free

This life's journey...all life journeys, have for me, been so Full ~ I'm EvEr Grateful ~

Thank you ALL~Whole awareness and all the pieces

Learning to embrace my truth, present/past/future, while re~membering that these 'happenings' are pieces of the whole self, in the expression called LIFE.  

Divine Truth is Oneness... Lives are a series of connections...for learning, living, loving ~ presence of God~Source ~ IN finite - In flesh~

As the ALL is the all potential for every existence~


For example, this week has been about Re~leasing the 'This life~That life, stories', in relevance to divine Identity.

WE're just playing these roles, in/at being, for experience's sake.

At core, we are light BE~ing, sparks of God~Source~ALL that IS,  in creative form...all one living, pulsing energy that is LIFE ~Being, grounded in the ALL.

NoW, re~membering my Divine aspect~

~All else, is FREE~

~Fly with Me~

~Ancestors, of tying~

~Tears, past crying~

~Fearing, my 'trying~

~Humanity Dying~Undying~

~Fly with me~

~Seeing~BE-ing~

~Genesis ‘Tree-ing’~

~Fly with me~

~Fly with me~

~SEE~

~LOVE~

~BE~

~AyAnnA~Bean~Me~  :-)

AyAnnA Kemba Franklin

A Play ~ Trusting the universal Divine

Watching my daughter's school (performing arts school) production today, was AMAZING! Shakespeare's 'A Comedy of Errors' meets Bollywood~musical. They knocked my socks off!

Throughout the first act (I felt almost in a trance)...it/they/spirit, conjured a spiritual experience. Ideas were flying and flowing about these concepts: the use and allowing of space~timing and physical spacial awareness, the movements and stillness placings and the varying resonances (especially of one actor). It was an exercise of quantum mechanics/physics and creativity that flowed...like source (itself) was speaking through/to... Spectacular and beyond words. I began thinking of returning to school to get another degree~education/theater, that I could use these 'knowings~learnings' to share this... WoW!

Thank you Mrs. Ogden, director extraordinaire (@ Houston's High School for Performing and Visual Arts) and the magnificent cast, crew and support team... So grateful, am I, that thes magnificently talented, unique children have you all...and a place to Be themselves, freely.

All true teachers and supporting staff, around the world, are such heroes, to me.

I even considered, returning to school to apply all of this, for sharing with our, infinitely illuminating, new generations.

Well, afterwards, my daughter's best friend, another amazingly splendid, light-filled young lady (beyond words) asked if I would work with her on some of her monologue work, for upcoming college auditions.

This is...this life...this dreaming~creating~dancing~seeing and Being... It was awesome to see 'teaching', through my spirit's eye...watch my mind, trying to organize and intellectualize it...then watch again...being co-created/manifesting, With spirit and another blessed being. Reminding to leave 'space'...allowing the universe to flow with/through us, often takes care of the details. :-)

THANK YOU ALL~LOVE~LIGHT~THANK YOU~THANK YOU~THANK YOU~THANK YOU~

Love and Light Joy Blessings EvEryONE~ :-)


AyAnnA K

 

Accepting~Re-membering, Human~Sacred ~Love

Releasing the Human Pain Body

Recently, I had a very interesting experience while using self healing tools, I was taught. With a method of soul healing, uses fractal theory to discover patterns of repetitive behaviors (stemming from root or initially strong emotional experiences), it includes forgiveness and embracing positive alternative thought patterns to integrate to wholeness.

There were several experiences, emotional keys (when something from the present, unlocks something from the past), which brought up emotions and something huge, to my attention. For me, most of this life has been in pain.

After a bit of insight, I began a process of forgiving a past (11 years ago) relationship's pain.

Moving through this process, which was emotional, other insights and deeper emotions began to surface.



With an "Aha!" realization, I began seeing this pattern: seeking pain and then, wanting release and escape (throughout time, it seemed to be there). I realized that, within myself there had been this acting and re-acting. Playing and rewinding the ‘pain...no pain’ scenario, over and over again, perhaps unconsciously hoping for it to end differently.


Humanity, as a whole, seems to be seeking, to escape this cycle. Have we been here, instinctively ‘living with’ and repeating, that which isn’t working (so that we may heal and get past it) ? Many times, I can remember myself, listening to a song, remembering an accompanying experience and the feelings that went with it. Though the experiences were gone, the ‘remembering’ of that feeling with the song, carried a teddy bear like quality and it was ‘comforting pain’...familiar.



At the same time, there was a reaching outwards to something...anything to soothe this pain.

{Now I believe it is a deep inner knowing, that something else...better, is possible.}



There are variable ways, in which, we humans attempt to lose our pain, by losing presence:

Overindulgence of pleasure varieties: TV and media, food, drug, etc.

Abuse: relationship choices, self mutilation and deprecation

Identity hide-n-seek: relationship self dissolving, defining self with titles, constant accomplishment seeking~martyrdom


Cycles of pain and ‘seeking no pain’ have such variety and the combinations...so many. How creative we are!



It seems that there’s a desperate attempt to live (reaching for the emotional resonances, we know) and then an attempt to not be there (seeking soothing). It almost has a resonance of most human births, I’ve witnessed.

Being born, a child/mother’s struggle to birth~being, often crying for the release and then...the soothing~loving.


Could this life, be humanity’s attempt, to eradicate man's, genetically encoded, instinct: to place survival above all else? To finally learn, how to reach a balance between being and loving...  Living, seeking...living, seeking...  







I remember deciding, as a little girl, listening to and feeling various conflict (and ages ago, in time), to choose love first. In dreams, I see myself (different, yet me) pledging to place love (what I thought was love~personality based love) before basic survival, in an attempt to avoid a life without love.


The missing link here, is that I felt a need to choose. And where was joy?


Ah~  Aha!





Bit by bit, as I felt wilted by pain, passion, energy and joy seemed to seep away. Survival was calling me and I was calling love, believing them to be separately possible.

What to do?  What did I do?


Disappear...   Be here and disappear...and the little girl, went about years of ‘pain and no pain’, knowing that, somewhere deep inside, there was something better.



During the healing experience, I felt relatives and ancestors (vast amounts), who’d suffered lives of emptiness, in attempts to "survive no matter what".
Recognizing the many ways, in which the heart/emotional body "shields itself" after painful experiences, opened me to really thinking.

Could it be, that this erasure of passion and purposing, due to the need to "survive", has lead to a DNA structure re-configuring, as with other species’ evolution, proven scientifically. Could our emotional genetic codes re-wire too...were they ever pristine? Below the DNA, energetically speaking, on a quantum physical level, all exists and is possible. Perhaps there, exist that deep, inner knowing, that all is possible, that keeps our human race going, despite pain~a Divine essence~who we truly are.

This feels true~
With this truth revealed, we can be reborn, to ourselves, to our original wholeness, living life with joy and love intertwining.

I'm feeling, that many those of us here, are being awakened to the belief that this life, with ever increasing love, is possible. Perhaps, it is our soul's destiny and human right, gifted from the divine.



We, human beings, are hearing a call, to a deep soul remembrance, of our true nature.


Innately, we are re-striving towards harmony, within and without. Purpose is calling to each of us, from within, it would seem, as a source...dare I say, Divine.



Experiences are resounding "yes!". With it, there is a releasing of fear, on an instinctual level and an acceptance and claiming of  Love, with "wholeness capabilities"; health and flowing positivity, in all areas.



Many scientists and spirituals have shared similar ideas and expanding research platforms, which intellectually, I've agreed with; now witnessed, through experience, are real and true.


Our feeling and seeing the capabilities, are exponentially renewing  beliefs in our, 'Humanity's Divine Re~membering'.

AyAnnA K

~Playing in Squishy Sand~

~Playing in Squishy Sand~

Growing up, throughout my childhood, my favorite place was the beach. Feeling the breeze flying, was heaven; smelling the salt air and hearing the sea gulls squawking...some of my favorite days.

Today, wherever I am, I can still see and feel that squishy sand, right at the shore line. The malleable sand that, wet as mud, would be firm some moments, and liquid at others. A wonderful thing with this type of sand, was that it could be used for designs and creating. I  remember dripping and drizzling it on ourselves, as we watched the patterns flow, creating body art designs all over.

Remembering moving forward a bit, placing my 'little girl feet', in this amazing ooze, of liquid sand,( pushing, wiggling them until the sand was above my ankles) is as close a memory, as yesterday.

The coolness, beneath the surface, wet and firm at the same time, supporting me each time.

That is the feeling of these days. So much has been changing for many, with such quickness, becoming accustomed to it has taken on a variety of faces and responses; we humans are so varied in thought, creation and action...it is a spectacular spectrum~our rainbow~humanity. These are those times, for drizzling and designing our days.

Though at initial glance, it may look messy, with practice our sand castles (that are our lives) become palaces of reflection, from/with the Divine.

As we twist or turn in our lives, imagine each of us as a star or a diamond. Every swivel is a new way of refracting the light, into and through the jewel, of yourself. A unique sparkling and light dance, resulting, each and every time.

Ah~

Let's Dance~Let's, in BEing, Sparkle~

Blessings~Light Love and joy to each of you~

AyAnna K

On Forgiveness...

LOVING encompasses Forgiveness...

"Forgive, forgive, forgive ~♥ 
That's what it is all about... 


Forgiving yourself...


 Forgiving ALL others... ♥  

...And harmony comes to you ~ ♥" 

 J. Bjoerg Jensen

"Joy, is seeing the presence of Creator/God, in all else... including self. Perceiving fault, is an illusionary mirror, for human growth. 

Learning to shape it (negativity), into Positivity, while growing... Living joyfully, is 'A Gift for the Soul'  ~

Everyone is Worthy and deserving...of living, "Being", joyfully~"

Ayanna K Franklin

Many Blessings to you, all ~

Discovering the gems, within your bowl of cherries~

A special THANK YOU, to Dawn Clark, for sharing her "Gifts~Gifts of the Soul" experiences, teachings and love~


Dawn, your bringing "transformational Being" to Humanity, is a "literal" Art~form-(ing) ~


If interested in: Re~membering Forgiveness, check out:


http://www.dawnclark.net/


Infinite Love and Many Blessings to you friend,


Ayanna K Franklin


Dedicated to Phyllis and Charles Franklin (mother and father) ~ Thank you for LIFE and helping to teach me, the gifts of: strength, releasing fear, embracing complete forgiveness and infinite Loving ~


(Ever Loving you)))


Ayanna "Bean to Bone" Kemba Franklin 

Growing and Learning: About "Loving Being" ~

Teaching By Living~ Mattie Stepanek

Hello, dearest Light family. 

There was once a time, when my physical "limitations dictated my actions, mood and lack of love, for this Life.


During this time, I met Mattie...via Oprah and a book, entitled: "HeartSongs" by Mattie Stepanek. In it, he would teach me to be consistently introspective, in fulfilling the desire to live a better life and grateful, for BEing alive.

Mattie, will always be part of the light, in my heart. At a time when it hurt, mind-body-soul, to move and breathing seemed to be the only grace, Mattie helped inspire me, in recognition of this, infinite strength and Gift, of life ~ the Breath ~

Learning, via experience, that the grace of one breath...is more than enough, for infinite Gratitude and Loving, (for/with God/Universe/Creation), has been my life's greatest lesson...thus far~ ;-) ; always leaving room for growing ~

~Thank you Mattie~

His book "Heart~songs", resonates with a purity, only ever paralleled, for me, by similar spirits, of Divine Light~God spirit, recognized~for it is in us...ALL.

Thank you Mattie, that you were, are (in heaven's light celebration~love) and ever, will be {through you Life~ lived as a star~ shining pure LOVE}~

Inspiring Teacher, Hero and Angel heart~


LOVE~AyAnnA K

~THANK YOU MATTIE~

Young Poet and Peacemaker Hero Mattie Stepanek passed away on the morning of June 22, 2004. Mattie’s poems of peace and hope have touched millions of lives; his heartsongs will continue to reach people of all ages around the world for decades to come.

POET HERO:

MATTIE STEPANEK

by Jim Hawkins

Mattie suffered from a hereditary disease called  dysautonomic mitochondrial myopathy, a rare form  of muscular dystrophy that had already claimed the  lives of his three older siblings. Mattie's mother, Jeni,  also suffers from the same disease. Mattie needed to take  a portable oxygen tank on wheels with him wherever he went.  Many times his illness would land him in bed in the intensive  care unit of the children's hospital. Outside, Mattie was only  able to move about in his motorized wheelchair. Even though  Mattie battled a terminal illness for many years, Mattie never  saw his condition as an obstacle between him and his goals. He began writing when he was about 3 years old. Before he passed away in June, 2004, Mattie had  written thousands of poems, dozens  of essays and short stories, and  presented a bound anthology of his  writing to the Library of Congress.  He received many awards for his  writing, including the  Melinda A. Lawrence International  Book Award in 1999 for “most  inspirational work.” His love of reading and writing evolved into public speaking, earning him  the Maryland State Goodwill Ambassadorship for the Muscular Dystrophy  Association. During his short lifetime, he enthusiastically participated in  fundraising events to help find a cure for neuromuscular diseases, and  to encourage children and families suffering from these diseases to  celebrate life until a cure is found. In Mattie’s words, “. . .we must remember to play after every storm and  to celebrate the gift of life as we have it, or else life becomes a task,  rather than a gift. We must always listen to the song in our heart, and  share that song with others.” Mattie on his hero ~ When I grow up, I want to be a peacemaker. My biggest role model for this is Jimmy Carter, who has been a wonderful peanut farmer, politician, and peacemaker... I call him the 'perfect hero.' MATTIE'S POETRY On Being a Champion A Champion is a winner, A hero... Someone who never gives up Even when the going gets rough. A champion is a member of A winning team... Someone who overcomes challenges Even when it requires creative solutions. A champion is an optimist, A hopeful spirit... Someone who plays the game, Even when the game is called life. There can be a champion in each of us, If we live as a winner, If we live as a member of the team, If we live with a hopeful spirit, For Life. From the book  JOURNEY THROUGH HEARTSONGS by Mattie J.T. Stepanek.  Copyright (c) 2001 Mattie J.T. Stepanek. Published by Hyperion.  Used by permission.  (c)2010 The My Hero Project, Inc. All rights reserved. Technical errors or questions? support@myheroproject.org  http://myhero.com/go/hero.asp?hero=mattieStepanek

Air~AyA

Air and AyA's Song

The breeze blows by me and I say thank you

Thank you Air, that rushes past my skin

Again the nature of creation blowing my mind


And I see, for a moment, as often occurs

Clarity, the "Aha!" genius in spurts... 


Oh Well...

The thing of it was, this Air, as she moved


Air, took a miniscule piece of me, drifting

Drifting, with her, carrying a smidge of us

All... 


of us All...


ALL


The next breeze, I noticed her sooner

Feeling the bits of the everything that IS

She spoke... took note... picked herself up


I swear, the Air, she knew my thoughts...

Gratitude, now fueling this breeze, with ease

A small cyclone began, you see, she was feeling me


Being a breeze... We were one and as soon

As the convo began... it was done. One

Won... Still... One. 


Noticing or not, We Are One

And I thank you


AyA to Air

~

On Being...Living with Light Consciousness~a Letter to All~Loving you~Thanking You~

Manifesting, often said, is God's "self" experiencing.

Dr. SohiniBen, our Light Grid beloved, once mentioned that we can best achieve... by being Love. Indeed, it is our being, with each moment, this Love, that feeds the Light, we know to be: Our Lives.

Living and being "beings" with Love (Loving Beings at every opportunity), is a Gratitudinal "Thank you" to Creation.

That you share this creation, this existence...because "We Are", I thank you, while thanking creation simultaneously.

Do you see the seamlessness? Circle of existence giving/receiving and the myriad of exchanges between, we have yet to express in mass.

As dualistic reality fades in and out (at differing rates for each of us), giving birth to our awareness (of simultaneously rising dimensions), we are each (and collectively) making our way Home~

For every being that is (you, being of the light)...

 for your presence...

for your light... 

for your sharing...

 of the energy of existence...   

 I am, Thanking You~

That we may, collectively, be aware of our "Oneness"... 

Thanking You~

That one day this planet will be spinning, as she does so seemingly effortless: (Her motion in Grace)...

That one day we will celebrate the evolution of our existences, as a symphony, harmoniously being, living

(((Thanking you)))

Knowing, this day is inevitable and rushing forward, whether I dance with you, as the self I am today or the next me, again...

This day is coming~

This, our BEing~

We Are 

HOME~

~(((THANK YOU, from the depths of my soul)))~

AyannaKembaFranklin/the little, "earth me"  :-)

 

~AyAnna K, Loving our Cosmos~